Project Me

I've kinda been inspired (or more correctly asked) To do more for myself so I'm going to try to work on that over spring break. Tonight it's ice cream and old movies (examples: Anastasia, Robin Hood etc etc.) So. yeah. any ideas for tomorrow night?

Then and Now 2011 - 2015

2011


1. Real name: Celeste Marie Jacobs

2. Nickname(s):, rainbow, Rose, Spot,

3. Favorite color(s):silver black dark red

4. Male or Female: Girly

5. Elementary School: Kanab Elemantary (KES)

7. High School: Kanab High (KHS)

8. College:AMDA ,SUU, Julliard, SNow

9. Hair color:light brownish

10. Tall or Short: somewhere in the middle

11. Sweats or Jeans: eaither but sweats are comfy

12. Phone or Camera: camera

13. Health freak: I LOVE CHOCOLATE

14. Orange or Apple: BOTH!

15. Do you have a crush on someone:Yes

16. Eat or Drink: bothy

17. Piercings: ears

18. Pepsi or Coke: DR. PEPPER

HAVE YOU EVER?

19. Been in an Airplane: not that i can remember

20. Been in a Relationship: not yet

21. Been in a Car Accident: yes

22. Been in a Fist Fight: yes

23. First piercing: Ears.

24. Best Friend(s): Joyce

27. First word: ?

29. Last person you talked to: Martin Hill

30. Last person you texted: Martin Hill

31. Last person you watched a movie with: mom /dad

32. Last food you ate: beef bean burittos

33. Last movie you watched:Dispicable Me 2

34. Last song you listened to: Australian National Anthem sung by: Anthony Warlow

35. Last thing you bought: The Complete Work Jekyll & Hyde: The Gothic Musical Thriller 2 disc CD pack

36. Last person you hugged: Rebecka Wiatrak

37. Food: sea food

38. Drink: Dr. pepper

39. Bottom:leggings

40. Flower: Rose

42. Color: blood red, black, silver, dark green, grey, an brown

43. Movie: too many

44. Subject: Drama

HAVE YOU EVER

45.

46. [♥] Celebrated Halloween

47. [♥] Had your heart broken

48. [ ]Went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone

49. [

51. [ ] Got pregnant

52. [ ] Had an abortion

53. [♥] Did something you regret

54. [♥] Broke a promise

55. [♥] Hid a secret

56. [♥] Pretended to be happy

57. [ ] Felipe.

58. [

59. [ ] left the country

60. [♥] Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it

61. [♥] Cried over the silliest thing

62. [♥] Ran a mile

63. [

64. [♥] Got into an argument with your friends

65. [♥] Disliked someone

66. [YES]did u know rawr means i love you in dino

CURRENTLY:

67. Eating:lays potato chips

69. Listening: On the Edge of Time from Doctor Zhivago sung by: Anthony Warlow and Lucy Maunder

70. Sitting/Laying: laying

71. Plans for today: school, babysitting

72. Waiting for:Martin Hill's letter and/or text

YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids: yeah sure a few.

74. Want to get married: yes!!

75. Career: Broadway

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL:

76. Lips or eyes: Eyes!

77. Shorter or Taller: Taller.

78. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both

81. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship.

82. Looks or personality:personality (but looks r nice 2)

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts:nope don't wear either

84. Snuck out of a house: 4 times when i was in elemantry i jumped out the kitchen window and once to go 2 prom with Teresa, and almost every night for a walk...but not anymore

85. Held a gun or knife for self defense: no daggar

86. Killed somebody:bwahahahahahaha...actually no

87. Broken someone's heart: I hope not

88. Been in love: am currently

89. Cried when someone died: Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: not all the time

91. Miracles: Yes.

92. Love at first sight: not really but i like the idea

93. Heaven:yes

94. Santa clause: no

95. Aliens: no

96. Ghosts: sometimes

TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: yeah...

98. Do you you know who your real friends are: i should hope so






2015


1. Real name: Celeste Marie Jacobs

2. Nickname(s):, rainbow, Sissy, CJ

3. Favorite color(s):silver black dark red

4. Male or Female: female

5. Elementary School: Kanab Elemantary (KES)

7. High School: Kanab High (KHS)

8. College:Snow

9. Hair color:Red

10. Tall or Short: Short but proportionate

11. Sweats or Jeans:slacks and sweats

12. Phone or Camera: camera phone 0.0

13. Health freak: no

14. Orange or Apple: Apple

15. Do you have a crush on someone:Yes and no. A bit deeper than that

16. Eat or Drink: both

17. Piercings: ears

18. Pepsi or Coke: DR. PEPPER

HAVE YOU EVER?

19. Been in an Airplane: not that i can remember

20. Been in a Relationship: yes

21. Been in a Car Accident: yes

22. Been in a Fist Fight: yes

23. First piercing: Ears.

24. Best Friend(s): Trevin Conder, Nikki Johnson, for top two. But I have a big list of friends but those two I'm probably closest to.

27. First word: ?

29. Last person you talked to: Trevin Conder

30. Last person you texted: Trevin Conder

31. Last person you watched a movie with: Trevin Conder

32. Last food you ate:burger

33. Last movie you watched:Does Doctor Who count?

34. Last song you listened to: The Farthest Star by VNV Nation

35. Last thing you bought: Coffee

36. Last person you hugged: Trevin Conder

37. Food: uh...not sure

38. Drink: Dr. pepper

39. Bottom:pajama pants

40. Flower: Rose, lilly, bleeding heart, orchid

42. Color: blood red, black, silver, dark green, grey, an brown

43. Movie: does Doctor Who and/or Sherlock count?

44. Subject: Drama

HAVE YOU EVER

45.

46. [♥] Celebrated Halloween

47. [♥] Had your heart broken

48. [ ]Went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone

49. [

51. [ ] Got pregnant

52. [ ] Had an abortion

53. [♥] Did something you regret

54. [♥] Broke a promise

55. [♥] Hid a secret

56. [♥] Pretended to be happy

57. [ ] Felipe.

58. [

59. [ ] left the country

60. [♥] Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it

61. [♥] Cried over the silliest thing

62. [♥] Ran a mile

63. [

64. [♥] Got into an argument with your friends

65. [♥] Disliked someone

66. [YES]did u know rawr means i love you in dino

CURRENTLY:

67. Eating: nothing

69. Listening: silence

70. Sitting/Laying: laying

71. Plans for today: class, be with my friends

72. Waiting for: spring break

YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids: would be nice

74. Want to get married: only if I think it's to the right person

75. Career: anything. though maybe stay at home mom in the future if it's an option

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL:

76. Lips or eyes: Eyes! you can tell a lot about a person based on the look in their eyes when they look at you.

77. Shorter or Taller: Taller. most people are taller than me

78. Romantic or Spontaneous: Funny

81. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship.

82. Looks or personality:personality

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts: Nikki's

84. Snuck out of a house: 4 times when i was in elemantry i jumped out the kitchen window and once to go 2 prom with Teresa, and almost every night for a walk...but now it's not something I need to worry about

85. Held a gun or knife for self defense: no

86. Killed somebody: no

87. Broken someone's heart: I hope not

88. Been in love: yes there is someone I love.

89. Cried when someone died: Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: no

91. Miracles: Impossible things just happen and we call them miracles.

92. Love at first sight: no. There would be no development which I think is important

93. Heaven:yes

94. Santa clause: no

95. Aliens: no

96. Ghosts: no

TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: yes. Everyday

98. Do you you know who your real friends are: I would like to say yes, but that is something you constantly have to discover because you constantly make new friends. What makes a 'real' friend depends on ones definition. 

Random Thoughts

Hearts are like Pandora's box. First you touch it, you don't realize you are doing it but then you open it up and all these good emotions come flying out, joy, happiness, compassion, love, and they stick to you because you let them out. Like I said you don't know this is what happened because it's all within this other person who's heart you opened. And if you reject these feelings that you let out then all the negative feelings come out. Sadness, anger, loneliness, fear, loss, etc. And they cling to the other person because they feel they did something wrong, or that they can't be loved for some reason. They lose hope of ever loving someone and being loved in return. They start to question if love is worth it. Then they shut themselves out to avoid further damage, and they slowly stop feeling anything other than that lost love and hurt and they decide never to open their hearts again. But then someone else comes along who touches this person's heart and their lives and their heart opens up again and they start to love this person with all that they are, but then this love too is rejected and this person has a downward spiral of loss and hurt, they lose hope again of ever falling in love with someone who will love them back but they try and try to show the person who opened their heart how much they mean to them but no matter what they do it never seems to be enough. They try to show them, they tell them over and over again how much they mean to them but no matter what they do, in the end they feel like they are being pushed away. So they hide away, but this time there are others who drag them out anyway and they are constantly reminded of how the other person makes them feel. Everything is OK for awhile, until they feel pushed away again and they remember that their love was rejected So they hide away again because they remember all that pain from the first time and this time. They desperately fight for whatever happiness they can find, but they can't find any without that other person because that love is still clinging on to that other person through it all. So all the first person can do is suffer, and wait, and hope that someday this other person will accept them for who they are and accept their love. All the while through that suffering the first person keeps asking themselves 'were hearts made whole just to break?' But they wait anyway.
Hearts are like Pandora's box.

#4

It's the weekend again. So....

Name: Tim Bennett

How we met: Castilleja

Fun fact: Really good metal-smith (In my opinion you should see the rings he's made)

Tim is probably one of the most outwardly happy person I know (I say outwardly because you never know what's going on emotionally for anyone) and is also one of the most patient and supportive a person could have. He's a really good guy and is fun to be around. You can talk to him about anything from light hearted banter to deep, serious conversations and is always willing to listen and offer advice if you need it. He's the kind of friend who always has your back. I know he's always had mine. Thanks Tim :)

Spotlight of the week

Name: Trevin Conder

How we Met: Witness Protection Program (Thanks Nikki for making me go)

Fun Fact: The first of the five people on campus who have seen me cry

*Shakes my head* Trevin, Trevin, Trevin. This guy knows more about me than anyone else on campus, and I like to think I know him pretty well in return. He can make me feel better in seconds after a bad day (Example when a room mate tells me I'm useless) He's my go to person whenever I need to get something off my chest or if something's got me down (Which is a lot more often than I'd like but anyone who knows me knows that already) and was the first to jump up and remind me that blessings are good. I think it's safe to say he's my best friend, well one of them anyway. Most of my favourite college stories (Which my sister Sara makes me tell and retell a hundred times over) involve him, mostly because of his flippant comments which I find so much amusement in and because he's pretty much the head of the group. He also has the prettiest eyes I've ever seen just throwing that out there...to me he's just one of those people where I find everything about them to be pretty fantastic...There is A LOT I can say about Trevin, probably because I know more about him than I do the others in my group of friends. I'm just glad I have him in my life, and pleased to know he's always got my back when I need help and that I can open up to him without being afraid. Thank you Trevin for deciding to be a part of my life.