Random Thoughts

Hearts are like Pandora's box. First you touch it, you don't realize you are doing it but then you open it up and all these good emotions come flying out, joy, happiness, compassion, love, and they stick to you because you let them out. Like I said you don't know this is what happened because it's all within this other person who's heart you opened. And if you reject these feelings that you let out then all the negative feelings come out. Sadness, anger, loneliness, fear, loss, etc. And they cling to the other person because they feel they did something wrong, or that they can't be loved for some reason. They lose hope of ever loving someone and being loved in return. They start to question if love is worth it. Then they shut themselves out to avoid further damage, and they slowly stop feeling anything other than that lost love and hurt and they decide never to open their hearts again. But then someone else comes along who touches this person's heart and their lives and their heart opens up again and they start to love this person with all that they are, but then this love too is rejected and this person has a downward spiral of loss and hurt, they lose hope again of ever falling in love with someone who will love them back but they try and try to show the person who opened their heart how much they mean to them but no matter what they do it never seems to be enough. They try to show them, they tell them over and over again how much they mean to them but no matter what they do, in the end they feel like they are being pushed away. So they hide away, but this time there are others who drag them out anyway and they are constantly reminded of how the other person makes them feel. Everything is OK for awhile, until they feel pushed away again and they remember that their love was rejected So they hide away again because they remember all that pain from the first time and this time. They desperately fight for whatever happiness they can find, but they can't find any without that other person because that love is still clinging on to that other person through it all. So all the first person can do is suffer, and wait, and hope that someday this other person will accept them for who they are and accept their love. All the while through that suffering the first person keeps asking themselves 'were hearts made whole just to break?' But they wait anyway.
Hearts are like Pandora's box.