I'm so empty...I'm in my own bed, yet I'm longing for home. I'm trying to remember the last time I felt like a priority in a relationship and...I draw a blank. Am I always going to feel like everyone's second hand? Their second or last choice? Sometimes I look back and feel like a used doll no one wanted. I don't want to be the result of a lack of better options. I want to be loved for who I am, not who I could be but...is that possible? I can't even love myself how can I expect someone else to love me for myself? So many people have thrown me away and left me behind. I'm so afraid it will happen again soon. People seem to be happier when I'm not there...would it be best if I just stay by myself in my shell? If they really see me will they leave? Sometimes I think I am meant to be alone. I don't know what to do...