On the Brink

No I'm not talking about the song by Lyndy Butler. All week this week I've been on the edge of crying and I don't know why. Do you know how frustrating that is? The worst part is my body won't let me. I was asked why I insist on keeping it all bottled up inside...to be honest part of me does. I'm used thinking of emotions as a disadvantage. but at the same time I know that it's good to get it out, but my body just won't let me. Everyday it's proven more and more that I am an anomaly, which is rather interesting to me. maybe all this is just a side effect of that....I don't know. Yet another thing to my list of things I need to figure out