thoughts

Why can't I function like a normal human being? Why do my definitions of things have to be different? Everyone else seems to view things as black and white. Why do I see grey? Example when my Mum asked if Trevin and I were serious; if we were then we were planning on getting married if not he was playing me the whole time, Why can't there be an in between? I mean, I wasn't planning on marriage or anything but I wasn't just messing around either. I used to take pride in being different from everyone else but now I'm not so sure. Why can't I be normal like other people? Why am I only happy around other people? Why can't life be simpler? I don't want to be different anymore. I'd like to be on the same page as everyone else, not behind...